just to amend shit, am stuck in, as I realise the situation I've apprehended,
no job and no course to join, now forced upon with the idea to join the armed forces,
a lost boy, looking at the armed forces losses thinking getting harmed for this,
cause, actually well what cause, on that note a look past,
that idea it get's thrown out like some fucking trash, stuck in last
can't get into my first gear, failure my worst fear ,
but am heading for it quicker than grades in my first year,
in secondary school, never reckoned a was cool, but a never stepped in my shoes,
properly meaning that metaphorically, obviously, always set out to lose,
when I could off tryed harder, now am paying for it,
if only back then I thought I gotta, study but na a had hate for it,
ignored it, but hey look at the future eh can always improve hopefully,
hope a do and not slowly, cause think a can cope then you don't know me,
short piece didn't have much time, feed if you can 
