Dear Diary: Heart's Pages Ft. Scott MD

by **mcZu** » Aug 6th, '09, 17:09

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We would like to read some shit from our heart’s pages
It wasn’t that hard to phrase it –when we engraved it
However; opening up is a harder task, aint it?

[Emcee Zu]
Dear dairy, I..

Couldn’t think straight, couldn’t get my things straight
Couldn’t see that fin straight –‘till that news hit straight
I knew it was strange; but who was I to have faith?
I really loved her, I hoped for a dope end
‘Till she left me –like Linda Marie Hogan
Was wrestling with my feelings; like –just go, end.
Wish I was Logan; amnesia token –would help me to move on
(But) am I that feasibly scared that I can’t cruise on?
Wish I had cruise control on, couldn’t control my arms
It hit me harder than a ball from Daisuke’s arms
When her friend Icy told me that she left…
Yeah right, felt like Icy had frozen me with what she said
Tears in her eyes, holding my shoulders –looking sad
She was shaking like Yasser Arafat when she spoke
Yes sir, my mood changed really fast when she choked
Couldn’t hear the traffic noise, just Icy talking like a lit fuse
‘’Selma’s family was forced to leave this country, Zu…
they couldn’t help it –she left forever; I thought you should know now’’
My limbs started to Medusa gaze in the middle of town
‘’I know you prolly mad she didn’t say a thing, Zoey…
she couldn’t bring herself to say goodbye I think, so she…
wrote you this letter, hoping you would understand, Zu, don’t be..
mad, I know you sad, but that isn’t what Selma wants, Zee’’
Icy kissed me on my cheek –and walked away from me
I walked home, thinking Selma the only one ever who called me Zoey…
Meaning Icy lost it as well, me and her both lost it
Lost Selma and lost our common sense –basically a lost Icy and Zu
Felt like we were in Hawaii on stage on the island Oahu
Past the direction on our compass, we were under
The impression of passing by a falling wonder…
So no wonder; that’s the past, were I sat next to luck
Now… I guess I found some new luck -but, see, Zu still stuck
Feel struck by Cupid once mo’ –hope it’ll be forever
She so clever, pretty and I leaving her side? Never...
That’s just one page of my heart; yeah, life’s just lovely anger
Oxymoronic in every breath we take, it’s fate
We human’s are just moron’s in love, real can be fake…

Yo Scott... That was my page, yeah just one page..
That's mo' than enough for today -time to read yours, mate

[Scott MD]
A'ight..
Dear dairy;

........things are complicated; and i'm just numb and hating
all of these songs and phrases; that just make me want to say this
i never thought i'd take it; my nerves and bones are breaking
my arms are worn and shaking, and it's part of all this aching
is it a dream? well i'm just praying; but it's reality when i'm waking
wished instead of all this playing; i could stop; rewind; erase it
but it's all on a tape and; no commercials; no escaping.
dear dairy i'm tired; my eyes are baggy, i'm feeling secluded
i'm gonna lose it; sometimes i cry; it depends what my mood is
i listen to music; headphones plugged in; it's on shuffle
and i drift away to a place out of space; no worries; just fuck all.
but when i wake up; it feels like i've crashed the fuckin' shuttle
collided into some stars or something; my brain is all muddled
no vision in this tunnel; i can't talk; it's like i'm wearing a muzzle
the pain is immense; i'm all tensed up; and tearing my muscles
i worked out today; lifted some weights; and i just kept running
but when i put the dumbells down; the weight just kept coming .. ?
the gravity is sapping me; i blame the happenings of this tragedy
i was in love; it's just maddening; had two girls; and now i don't have any
i'm burned out; i tried to keep going; but my lights have turned out
i've lost the urge now, the will to live; it's like i'm just cursed now
it hurts, ouch; but i close the curtains and get the rest i deserve, yes
i try to sleep; the music still playing; the beat pounds down my chest
i'm in a nightmare suddenly; i reminisce where i found out the rest
of my thoughts; all playing in front of me; so i round up the best
memories i ever had with her; but then i sound out the stress
and compare it to the happiness of it all; and how 'bout the sex .. ?
that was amazing; but because of her cheating; i now doubt the next
girl who claims to love me; unable to trust her; unable to love her
even if she was an angel; i'd suffer; 'cause your ghost stays right above her
now what am i supposed to do .. ? when all i ever had was you
i had two; but the one i chose was you; and now i'm lonely; boo...