Ignored as a youth, suicidal, literally
Father left the house early on, but
Mother worked hard for what?
Nothing; her arm was cut off
In a job accident, but her boss
Only looked at her and scoffed
Had no siblings; so lonely
Alone, alone, no one else but me
House was on the outskirts
Of an industrial city; it still hurts
The pain of memories still burns
One night, woke up in sleep
Satan had sent me something to keep
Forever and ever eternally
Walked to my mother's room
Blood.
Stumbled for a second
Blood.
Her face was still lost in the sweet sleep
Blood.
World turning sideways
Blood.
Gripped the bedpost
But it was covered in blood
Middle of the night, no sun
Staggered to her death soul
The night was so cold, so cold
Blood spilled on her breast
Dagger in her chest
Body was a fucking mess
Gripped the hilt of the knife
Ripped it out with little strife
Left the bedroom, renewed
Man standing in the kitchen, silent
My rage turned to violence
Jumped forward, blade outstretched
Made him like my sketch-
-Board; he didn't falter
Stood there patiently; blood spurt
Didn't it fucking hurt?!
Stabbed him several times more
Hit him seven times in the core
The fuck... faintly smiling?
Perhaps he was beguiling
Blood was still stained on him
Either he was God or the Grim
Reaper; still moved with broken limbs
"Do you feel that rage?" he asked
I wondered how long my next fit would last
"Do you feel that burning sensation?"
Tearing apart his ribs would give me elation
"That hate... feel that hate."
Met my fate; fell for the bait
Sprang forward, ready for another round
I gave a choking sound
His fingers wrapped around
My throat; still in mid-air
Gave me a chilling, yet smiling stare
Spoke mockingly, yet slowly
But regarded me coldly; still choking
"Do you miss your mother already?"
Breathing became unsteady
Hands still a grip of steel
Body was slowly numb; couldn't feel
"Do you wish I could bring her back?"
Head was dizzy; neck going slack
Couldn't keep mind on track
"Do you want to know why I do this?"
I was going to lose it
Mind turned blank; sank and sank
Into a darker hell
Eternally fell
Deeper
Deep
Dark
Low
Bot-
tom
Dead?
Blackest
Was I dead?
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