Blood on my hands

[mceddie]

(not a rap)

Blood on my hands

My words are crowded
but dont let that fool you, i know how i feel
though the words may not come out right
my mood is everything, its oh so real

Maybe if i wasnt such a coward
i'd voice to the world myself
it feels like ive run out of air
and theres no one else who needs more help

even shadows wont give me the time of day
and it feels like im being pulled away into the darkness
My heart is poisoned, im not sure what that means
But it feels like lately, i fear, i am heartless

No one reaches out to me
but i dont blame them, howre they supposed to know
angels hide their faces around me
cause they think i have no love to show

But it isn't true, i know deep somewhere
there's a little bit of light left that i hide
why i hide it i dont understand, im vulnerable
maybe its cause im scared to show whats really inside



Chorus

Its so hard
to believe that this could be real
when ive been hurt so many times before
with no chance given to heal

There's blood on my hands
I fucked up i know, its not for me
but where do i go from here
who am i supposed to be

When it's so hard



If i lay here and act like i dont care
in your eyes, i am fine
but theres so much more my eyes have to tell
where does it end, where is the line?

Im sick of pretending its all okay
At the end of the day, im not
If only theres was a way out
besides this frivolous shot




Its so hard
to believe that this could be real
when ive been hurt so many times before
with no chance given to heal

There's blood on my hands
I fucked up i know, its not for me
but where do i go from here
who am i supposed to be

When it's so hard