Proud But Not Close

[Ka0t1c]

i've felt all alone as i dealt with myself meltin below
i'm fallin far down i know and it's startin to now show
how's to excel when my heart wants to slow as new scars are enrolled
pardon my soul for the Hell and the hardest of tolls
i'm open to tell about my targeted goals
well before my marbles do go
i followed my nose, i smelled a powerful dose
towards the Army and chose
to destroy my own body, a valuable host
i was proud but not close
i prolly took the wrong alley
i'm s'posed to get out and
put me to the challenge
and so i'm looking at an outlet
where most my talent has rose
i'm no rookie, don't doubt that
i've always disposed the boundaries you post