If I Should Die

by **lilrossy** » Sep 26th, '09, 01:24

jus a song im workin on, it's not finished but let me know wat ya think

in da car, sunroof open, staring at the stars,
thinkin lifes hard, lord knows i've been scarred,
but its these scars that motivated me to write these bars,
salvation awaited me, this shit was a probable cause,
as lifes raod started to bend, i found it hard to amend,
depended on alcohol, and this pad with this pen,
doin anything to blend, misstreating my friends,
attended school rarely, bien sick is what i'd pretend,
didnt wanna face everday struggles of life,
constently in strife, actin tough, walkin with a stride,
but tough aint packin heat or quik to pull outa knife,
its standing on two feet, with two fists, ready to fight,
i realise that now, and i can see ive been an ass,
bein a fuckin dick, all up in ur face like a mask,
and so i sit here now, fuckin disgust with my past,
and afta all dis shit, theres just one thing i wanna ask, (and thats)

Chorus: (female singing)
if i shuold die, before i wake,
would you cry, what would you say,
would you be alrite, or will ur heart ache,
would ur life change, if i went away.

As i look bak, i never really said much,
guess i was the type of kid who kept his mouth shut,
such is life, somehow always ended up in strife,
wasnt that bright, never really thought twice,
resorted to lies, simulated to be accepted,
with this disguise came an outcome that wasnt expected,
reality intercepted, i hated who i was,
alienated, as i ova exaggerated my flaws,
against all odds, i always kept myself together,
while hating myself and domineering to feel betta,
when i felt under the weather, i'd stay locked away,
like all my feelings deep down buried by a spade,
everday i'd pray, for sumthing thats feels beautiful,
like when we were kids and we'd play, with no worries at all,
if i was to fall, would you reach out for support,
if i needed to talk, are you the one to look for. (and i guess)

Chorus.