the edge of darkness

[Edge]

Lately it seems I’m on the edge of darkness
used to be so happy, what couldve sparked this?
Hoping that the light I see could be attained
Until than, I just walk through life deranged

Lately it seems my whole lifes one giant failure
Try to see the big picture, but all I sees the trailer
Wonder should I wail or, just sit there in silence
Tryin to be at peace with myself, as I stare at violence
I fare with tyrants, and all of the devils demons
Try to get my head staight, but im unlevel screamin
It seems like everything I do is a fucken mistake
I tremble and shake, and everything I touch breaks
Drown myself in a lake, nobody would miss me
Staring at the grim reaper, hes about to kiss me
It looks like I’m about to have my final kiss
And as the vinyl splits, I feel like my spinal twists
Critics backlash is starting to become offending
Looking in a crystal ball, all I sees a tough ending
It doesn’t matter, I gotta keep on progressing
Bags under my eyes, cant sleep cuz I’m stressing
Will everything work out? My ending be superior?
Act happy on the outside, but crushed in the interior

Lately it seems I’m on the edge of darkness
used to be so happy, what could’ve sparked this?
Hoping that the light I see could be attained
Until than, I just walk through life deranged

People call me an asshole, I just give it how I get it
I could never tell a lie, so I lived it if I said it
And I’m trying to be the man, that I’m destined to be
Before I end up shot, just some flesh in the street
The man I wanna be it seems is just not possible
Depression kicking in, need a trip to the hospital
Madness and sadness, flow through my blood stream
Light up a blunt all by myself, not into the club scene
It’s a Friday night, I stay in my house all by my lonely
I don’t wanna go out, cause ain’t nobody knows me
People act like my friend but theyr really backstabbers
I feel beat down to a pulp and than I get attacked after
Back to back beatings, laying quiet and motionless
My heads wavy, but I’m deeper than an ocean is
Cant believe that the thoughts in my head are suicidal
Feel like everyone I meet is just a crew of rivals
No1s on my side so suicide is starting to be a rationality
Put the barrel to my temple, blast off to another galaxy

Lately it seems I’m on the edge of darkness
used to be so happy, what couldve sparked this?
Hoping that the light I see could be attained
Until than, I just walk through life deranged