krayzy wrote:i hope i wouldn't kill someone punching them...fuck i aint care bout killin anybody if i wanted to but i'd rather use a knife

or something violent
i havent been in all that much "real" fights, but i play fight alot, like real fighting but joking around, if i get into a real fight and im pissed i lose all grip on reality what so ever and i only have the reason to brign whoever im fuckin with down, and there im scared of myself killing someone, with how crazy i could get, not trying to make myself seem tough or anything, i could lose it and end up fuckin with the wrong person and myself pummeled, another thing i fear, either way im scared of getting myself into shit because i go nutz
i hardly get angry really, im pretty calm and well not relaxed im always anxious, insecure and shit, but im more laidback, i just dont know when i get in a fight and i take it serious and i dont like the person its like all inside me bottled up whatever bursts out, which could be an unhappy ending for me or the other person, had to go to the mental hospital once because i was geting REAL pissed at my dad then i was REALLY thinking on killing him, which would get me in shit..or just beat up bad lol
talking about all that you know where4 'KrAyZy' comes from
otherwise i refrain from serious fights..i too have thought about this though i knew about the one punch could kill someone thing, someone got killed at my school, two kids, get into a fight, it ends, they even fuckin shake hands, a week later one of the boys dies after falling into a coma, guess the other got a good punch in..makes me afraid cause i box all the time, and playfight
not so much of an issue now though..i aint go to school anymore they let me go
i couldn't take it anymore
insecurity being my weakest link also might one day resolve in my most dangerous link...good thing i got me music..
Sorry for the life story, fuck i thought i was gonna write a paragraph and thats it
bye bye
