Yea..

[BigBoss]

Well first off I want to say, to everyone I've been a dick to on here, I'm sorry. I just looked through everything I've said here...Damn man, in hindsight, I was realized I was a real dick, holy hell.

which led me to start thinking about how I act in person, and as I thought about it I realized I'm a sarcastic little immature shit.

The past few days haven't necessarily been the best, in fact they've been shit.

The girl i was interested in for A LONG time, I was flirty with her, she was flirty with me, she seemed to care for me and I did for her and proved it to her on countless times. I swear i was in love, we just didn't make it "official" but I didn't think about doing that.

Turns out she was just being "nice" to me, because saying I'm an "incredibly close guy she's ever been with" is being nice right? Well turns out on Valentines Day some guy she's been talking to for awhile, a little less than me, asked her to be her girlfriend, and since Valentines Day is apparently a "lovey" day for everyone, she thought it was so sweet of him to ask her that on V-Day, so she said yes.

Then when I asked her about it, she said "yea sorry, your one of the nicest guys ive met, i felt incredibly close with you, but your just to immature for my taste, sry"

Now I didn't take that to kindly, not the least bit. I ended up meeting this guy whose so sweet for asking her out on a bullshit "holiday", if you can call it that. And guess what? I know I'm a jock, but I'm one of those quiet ones. I don't party or anything....This guy, he's the typical PoS jock you see in the movies.

I just stood there jaw dropped, this girl knew I have major trust issues and yet I let her in. Then she does THIS on me...

Needless to say, I cussed both of them out, he swung at me, gave me a bloody nose. So I swung at him, got him right in the throat and he went out instantly. (he went unconscious, i checked afterwards, being a trained lifeguard actually helped me after all.)

But unfortunately the police were already there.

When I came home from the cell the next day I just sat on my bed and really thought about myself, how I treat people, I was a real shit head to everyone. Her saying I was to "immature'' for her really made me think about stuff. That line from 8 - Mile when Em says the "You wanna stop living down here , and start living up there " line kept going through my head.

And here I am, not much later after that I'm forcing myself to turn my whole life around, change my whole personality towards people.

So once again, to people I was a dick to on here, specially Atone, sorry.

[Blu]

This whole thread is on a new level of maturity.

Honestly man, it's cool to have fun sometimes, but when you're dealing with life; take it seriously. You never know who might end up having the last laugh, ya know?

[BigBoss]

This whole thread is on a new level of maturity.

Honestly man, it's cool to have fun sometimes, but when you're dealing with life; take it seriously. You never know who might end up having the last laugh, ya know?

Yea. A lot of shit just been going through my mind lately, my head coach just randomly died in his sleep, and one of my best friends/team mates from high school was shot and killed. I guess i just kinda over reacted on her and him and snapped on them.

[AbramIsaac]

I've had moments like the one you seem to be having.

It's good. It's a time for growth. Just don't forget that you have to be vigilant. Otherwise, two weeks from now, you'll be right back where you were before.

[Atone]

it's all good man, it's just the internet no harm done