by ,-,'-{Bar}-',-, » Sep 17th, '06, 22:41
ok before anyone reads this most wont because of its length but this was when i grew up everyone has a time were they step up and stop ebing a child this is mine at the age of about 9 i aint 100% sure names are changed apart from mine...and well this is something really close to me...i dont tell ppl about this...
anywae the first time i felt hate in my life real hatred
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Part 1 - First Feel of Hate
ok man time to tell you my story
i was coming home from school primary 6 i think
got home when in the kitchen for a drink
noticed my mother boyfreind just standing over the sink
"is mom home yet weres tracey at ?"
"go watch cartoons david theres no time for that"
so a sit watching citv , i was about 9 at the time
so he sits down and starts crying to himself
ma mum rages in slaps him of the shelf
"what the fuck you doing you fucking prik im gonni get everyon to chopp of you dick"
im like oh shit , " whats happened mom , im hungry whats to eat"
"theres leftovers there david , put it in the microwave to give it heat,
"ok mom , but weres tracey at"
"dont mind that just watch tv"
im thinking ok dam take it easy
what hapened today , i wanna go out to play
so my mum comes back in shes like david come here
a go over she cries more as a move near
police bust in my house take the boyfreind away
"david has paul ever took you to play"
"what ya talking about mom?"
"like ever played with you"
"yeh we played wars with cardboard box shoes"
"no i mean played with your parts , like downstairs"
"uh....no what all this about"
police women takes me by the hand david tell us the truth
" i am let go of meyou betetr tell me the truth"
i look in my mums eyes and a start to cry
"mum im young but not dumb whats hapened to tracy"
"david son pauls been abusing tracey"
"what do you mean"
" go talk to her in the room"
a go in a hear ma mom break down to the floor
walk in the bedroom door , see tracey crying on the bed
she sitten with my auntie and a police women
"david just get out its no the time nor place"
im like someone betetr tell em what goin on
"david pauls been sexually millesting stacey since the age of 4"
now i was young but not that young
"mum no"
i run at the door open it up run dwon ma street
he still getting put in the police car the rage carries me
brik in hand im gonni kill you man
hit the pole car try to open the window
im gonni make this dicks mom a widow
"what the fuck you sick perverted bastard!!"
the police huckle me
dam im only 9 and look at me a grew up in the space of 5 minutes
i go back to ma house full of rage and anger
punch the wall start crying to hard a fell me eyes goni come out
freinds come to the door you coming out
"no , bye"
buck myself up head back to ma mom
"mom is this real is this really goin on"
"i dont understand how could he without us knowing"
" he did when i was at work on satarday and sunday"
"so only i was in at the time"
"yes"
i never knew a swear a never knew
wait shit
the police catch the thing in my eye
was is it david tell us dont lie
"when a was watching cartoon shed shout on me
shed shout on with fear not glee
id go in shed be in the bed with him
i thought she was just lying in bed with him
like i lied in bed with my mum nothing sexually
shed scream and tell me to come ad come
be like what is it and shed tell me to stay no cartoons on goodbye ok
close the door hed always yell this would go on from 9 till 12"
from that moment on ive been a changed man ive never realeased the rage ive had
if a stayed there he never would have touched her
this hapened almost 7 years ago
and a still fear, i was to blame