My Life now

[jarman007]

Hi
My name is Jarman
from India

Just wanted to share my feelings with you all.......
following poem/rap is about what i am felling now
i have been preparing a exam IITJEE for a year or so and i fucked it up (going to a new city and all , things got a little of track)

IIT JEE : Indian Institute of Technology Joint Entrance Exam
its a big deal for me and i have fucked up it preparation
and india you can just do that....lots of people and lot less opportunities......population of more than a billion......india has three times the population of america and its area is three time smaller.......so have to work very hard and i did not.....
i didn't listen to english music in general but i started listening to rap (mainly em) in last 4-5 months, while its good and i can relate to a lot (Rock Bottom) i want to stop listening to it for next few months as it distracts a lot

still there is some time for the exam but i can't find that motivation to start

please give me some advice to motivate myself to start again....
and what do you thing of the following piece


green wording can be my inner positive side or some person giving me advice




Happy , Passionate , Raring to go
Fuck , this seems like a long time ago
I am talking about the time when i was starting to give IIT a go

Went to study in Vidyamandir , Delhi
I had to do it for me and my family

Sad , Depressed....this is what i am now
Having fucked up......i have hit rock bottom awww

Will do anything to go back
Somebody tell me what does it take to rewind the time back

yo , guess what
It can't be done
Shit i'm done

O'brother , keep ya head up
Motherfucker , shut the fuck up

.....I know its bad
But why you this mad
What else do i have

Its bad ,but not over
Start over
Its everything but over
Fight till your Breath over

Don't lose hope
Thanks i will not
Fuck this rapping shit
I can't waste time on it
I will achieve what i decided

Yea,Rapping and other stuff
Can be done afterwards
But IIT JEE
come once a life
I hope i helped you make
up your mind
On you I'll keep my sight
Bye for tonight
and yes , don't give up the fight

[Sam.]

Yaay i wanna be Eminem too.

[jarman007]

Yaay i wanna be Eminem too.

don't tease me bro

it was my first try ever

[Sam.]

u screw up

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IIT JEE : Indian Institute of Technology Joint Entrance Exam

and tell me not to tease you, do you even realize it's imp son, many people give away their desires for this . grow up kiddie.

[jarman007]

u screw up

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IIT JEE : Indian Institute of Technology Joint Entrance Exam

and tell me not to tease you, do you even realize it's imp son, many people give away their desires for this . grow up kiddie.

[Sam.]

lol.

[IrishShady]

Stop being a prick MCSam.

Good job Jarman!

[Sam.]

Stop being a prick MCSam.

Good job Jarman!

I know this guy ,we are from the same place, he understood what i meant .

[mdemaz]

Stop being a prick MCSam.

Good job Jarman!

I know this guy ,we are from the same place, he understood what i meant .

Brool pory, po.

[jarman007]

Stop being a prick MCSam.

Good job Jarman!

thanks bro

[Elision]

I found it hard to motivate myself for a while. Then I threw the bullshit aside and looked at my life logically.

If my goal is D, and I need to go to A, B and C to get there, what in the fuck am I doing?

Find out what you #1 goal is in life, and start climbing. Every moment that you're not doing that is time wasted. And you're life is slowly ticking away.

[jarman007]

I found it hard to motivate myself for a while. Then I threw the bullshit aside and looked at my life logically.

If my goal is D, and I need to go to A, B and C to get there, what in the fuck am I doing?

Find out what you #1 goal is in life, and start climbing. Every moment that you're not doing that is time wasted. And you're life is slowly ticking away.

thanks for the advice bro...