P.S I was writing this before Coleon, he stole my idea
My heart's a twisted chamber, bent by this instant danger
When I spit, I don't miss, I rip when I vent this anger
This vicious banger will leave you hangin by a thread
You cry and beg, but me goin soft? I'd rather die instead
As I lie in bed patiently waitin for my time to laugh
Tenaciously breakin every adversary's spine in half
My defining wrath treads in the wake of a movement
My dedication to music will shred, degrade and abuse it
There's no betta fate its conclusive, I love the music
But I didn't get into hip hop for the love of music
I started rapping so I could be above the students
At Miamisburg who didn't want nothin to do wit
Me, just cause I wasn’t hot enough, man fuck its stupid
So I keep writing everyday because I love improvement
And there's one exact girl but I won't speak her name
And give her a peek of fame, then she'll receive the pain
If I succeed in aims, I'll be rich with the fortune and fame
And I'll make sure she'll never have a portion to claim
This is more than a game, it saved me before I bled right out
Cause if it wasn’t for hip hop I would be dead by now
My only motivation for living is when you want me back
And my satisfaction as I stare at you and fucking laugh
Cause this dream impels me to reach for this end goal
Ever since you left my desires increased ten fold
I've been told to give up, all this rap stuff is pipe dreams
But its more to me, the stage is only where the light gleams
I've been fighting to let you go, then you wanna apologize
I'm appalled lies, I truly love you, but that’s all inside
I sat in these walls n cried, I went back with a tall step
I've cried four times in my life, n they were all deaths
My Grandpa, my dog, Mario and are friendship
We had a good run, but the last 2 months have been shit
It'll end quick when you replace me with my best friend
But he's true, unlike you, so bitch keep steppin
Then it set it, my heart felt like it had sunk to the ground
Like new years eve when you got drunk, I had found
A new side of you, I could never look at you the same
You were a new person to me, ever since that you became
Some new cool bitch, I always saw you as my equivalent
But I was ambivalent about this, I said I didn't give a shit
But the opposite was true, the consequence of you
Making that horrible decision has got to get to you
A lot of shit you do effects me more than you might knew
I smoked my first blunt cause I wanted to be like you
I tried to forget but we were over, you were actin phony
But to be honest my final plan for us was matrimony
Yeah that's right, that night where you sat n told me
Your inner feeling and you loved me, that was only
What I wanted but now I see I'll only be fat n lonley
Music is the only thing forever is what rap has showed me
This crap is going to literally eat me alive
Time is the only thing that will treat me inside
So before we decide the best situation you walk away
And it hurts me more than anything we didn't talk today
If we ever conversed again I'd probably have a lot to say
It's like you’re the king of this game I never got to play
I said it'd be the worst decision of your life, now you know
What could have been, with this rap im just out to show
That because of you pain ive felt is insane, ive dealt
With so much bullshit but ive remained myself
Cause through all of these years the pain ive held
Has finally broke free, I could not contain my yells
But it's over now I'll try to move on as she lets me roast
But im done, I won't say another word about (beat cuts off)
