Fa-Q - Thinking Out Loud

[Fa-Q]

I wish I could have a change of heart, because the stranges part,
Is I want to die, because you'll never die, a blood stain is art,
Even to people that would have never loved you, just ask Pac,
I want to be locked in the coffin of invincibility, with a brass lock,
These are just simple smears that are lines and dots on a page,
I could be just a mortal artist that every show, rots on a stage,
Are these traces of insanity, surprising thoughts for my age,
Or are these thoughts a bombshell, who cares, I've gone to hell,
Because I have fallen short of heaven, I've landed in hell smokin,
I have burning skin, yet I know I'm a gentleman, who's well spoken,
And when I fell in tokin', I felt like an egg who's shell's broken,
What if I give you watered down lyrics, as if, in my mind a well's open,
I would feel like I've been shot out of a cannon, I'm like a cannon ball,
Airborne now, don't dare mourn now, I'm still standin tall,
Each day is different, evolution to my depression is sloped and angled,
I dream of a true hip hop comeback but my last hope is strangled,

This is just me, thinking out loud,
In my chair, I'm sinking not proud,
Am I allowed to scream, inside my fake, exterior,
Cause right now I seem so wide awake, inferior,

See, I tried to focus, my blue eyes were locked in a task,
But ended up being strangled, even with an oxegen mask,
How'mi gonna be die, if, at my gravesight, my bones stick through,
How'mi gonna be buried six feet deep, when I've grown six-two,
And if I die, will it be a quick way, or will I have a painful death,
You say I'm not dead, still alive but please explain my still breath,
How will I be buried, a tough guy, pictured in a leather jacket,
Will I slowly descend in the ground, in a weathered casket,
When my eyes close for the first time, will I see bending sevens,
Or will my limp lifeless cold body, be descending heavens,
And will crusifixes, burn into loose sixes, and soon mixes,
And when people at my funeral, will they try and leave props
Or will they steal every lyric they heard, when they eavesdrops,
And if I had children, who I'll have loved, will they grieve pops,
Will they feel my insecurity, or will they think my fear's shown,
These are questions I'm thinking allowed, as I sit here alone,

This is just me, thinking out loud,
In my chair, I'm sinking not proud,
Am I allowed to scream, inside my fake, exterior,
Cause right now I seem so wide awake, inferior,

Biggest difference between me and them, I'm going places,
You're in the race, but I'm speeding up instead of slowing paces,
The funny thing is, me and him have the exact same dream,
To hit mainstream, make it bigger than ever, but fame's mean,
Is it crime, if my simplistic mind, has a fuckin brain scheme,
I feel like I'm gonna have to be a more than a speakin mime,
But I can't erode, weather, I can never become weak in time,
My head feels like a strong brick wall, yet its not sick at'all,
Since its too strict to fall, and I'm too much of a prick to crawl,
When I do die, I wanna go to heaven, but if I go to hell,
I wanna live a fuckin sinners life, and not only show it well,
But grow to dwell, in the place I love, and face above,
And fuckin flip off heaven for not only kickin me out,
But to leave me spineless, emotionless, and stricken with doubt,
Cause right now, I'm not thinking out loud, I'm yelling out loud,
Sold my soul to the devil for you guys, fuck selling out now,

This is just me, thinking out loud,
In my chair, I'm sinking not proud,
Am I allowed to scream, inside my fake, exterior,
Cause right now I seem so wide awake, inferior,

[Yah-hah]

Thought it was dope. Haha I do this kinda stuff alot. multies are damn sharp homie

[Fa-Q]

Thanks Jus

[classthe_king]

Wow, you have improved so much. I loved this piece. You are so good at coming up with rhymes. Your lyrics and all that are dope too. Keep it up.

[mcZu]

That first verse is probably your best verse ever Fa-Q, for real.

[Fa-Q]

Wow thanks a lot class and Zu and Co I write always to Shadowville beats...I love them ...thanks a lot guys

[Fa-Q]

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