ok..... i am just incredably flustered right now... and i just need to let it out, so i wrote a poem..........
to my beloved
i hate you
i hate everything about you
i hate the way you make me feel
i hate that i cant make you real
i hate the fact that you dont care
how you just scattered my soul everywere
i hate this nawing in the pit of my gut
and the way the buddy door constantly slams shut
i hate the way you leave me waiting
and when you leave im alone and screaming
i hate this aching deep in my heart
the way your love tore my world apart
i hate that smug little smirk on your face
and how my love for you grows with each breath i take
i hate the fact that youll never know
and so my hate continues to grow
i hate the fact that u exsist
but your lips i can never kiss
but what i hate most of all
is that i cant seem to hate you at all