Em used to be addicted to ecstasy?

[Amaranthine]

I didn't know this, just stumbled across it.

What types of drugs were you were taking?

Ever since the beginning of my career I dabbled in Vicodin, Valium, Ambien. It was kind of like a recreational thing that, for some reason, when it first started out, like ecstasy and shit like that, I was able to do it and step away from it. Drinking, I was able to do it and step away from it. But slowly it started progressing. For a while, there were, like, four to six months where I struggled with ecstasy. I had found myself taking it before every show.

So you would go out, rock these shows…

Yeah, like, on the Warped Tour, me and Proof would split a hit, like half a hit or whatever, and on top of it, I was drinking or whatever. Then I would come home and be like, Aight, I’m not gonna do it around the kids. So those would be the times I’d clean myself out. I’d be home for a week, two weeks or whatever and be like, I’m done with this. Then I’d get back out on the road and then… It started becoming that I’d be doing it all the time if people had it. I wouldn’t carry the shit on me. I wouldn’t have it myself. If we were around that kind of party atmosphere and somebody had it, which my music at that time always attracted that crowd, like the raver kids and shit like that, we’d end up hanging out with some kids somehow, and people would be around us and be like, “Hey, I got some mushrooms, I got this, I got that.” Slowly, after a period of time, it became where we were buying it on the road. So we would kinda say, “Who’s got the E?” It became where I wasn’t doing it anymore because people had it, I was doing it and actually purchasing the shit, just because. Then it got to a point where I felt like I needed it to be onstage. My biggest thing was sleeping. I would take NyQuil and shit like that. I’d be like, Okay, well, this worked last night. But I got to take extra tonight, ’cause it ain’t gonna work. Now I got to get a prescription for something. I got to see my doctor.

Because you couldn’t sleep?

It’s between the schedule and all the shit when it starts to get crazy. When you’re in album cycle and touring and shit like that, the schedule… You got to be somewhere at certain times. You only got this little window to sleep. And if you don’t sleep, you are kind of fucked for the next day. So it was all the mental things that I went through. I struggled with ecstasy, kinda struggled with drinking. But I was able to cut it off, which is what I never understood about pills. But that’s obviously what you learn in rehab. It’s what becomes your drug of choice. Certain addicts may not struggle with… I may not have a problem with liquor. But if I drink liquor and I get to where I get a hangover the next day, I’m screaming for a Vicodin. “Oh, I wish I had a Vicodin!” So, basically, I struggled off and on with prescription pills, like, the next three years. Then, everybody knows, I went through a divorce. I was trying to put my family back together. That ended up not working out. Then losing my best friend. It was kinda like going through those struggles. None of that shit was easy. My addiction got worse and worse and worse.

[Elision]

[Atone]

i was once addicted to porn

[BigBoss]

i was once addicted to porn

You still are..being a retard and all

[AbramIsaac]

Hmmm...

I'm not sure this would qualify as an addiction, exactly. This seems to fit more inside the realm of habituation. What these means is that he had developed a habit, even a need to a certain extent, but this seems different than addiction to me. The ecstasy was necessary at its worst for performances. The thing about a full on addiction is that it comes to be necessary for practically every aspect of life. That's what makes it so hard to control.

Plus, psychedelic drugs aren't typically addictive. In fact, some are very useful in fighting addiction. I can see there being an increased risk of addiction with a psychedelic amphetamine like MDMA, but pure Molly isn't really prone to getting you legitimately hooked. Chances are though, the rolls he was getting were adulterated with methamphetamine, or something similar.

That's why you always go for the Molly kids, and be sure to test your rolls with a kit.

[JamaicanPattlez]

i was once addicted to porn

You still are..being a retard and all

OMFG.

[Alex2012]

i thought everybody knew that since time immemorial.

[R00si]

I thought that was a known fact for like forever lol Even his bodyguard talked about it back in 2000. How Em always took X before shows, and all day long:
"I can recall one day during the Warp Tour where he took fourteen different
drugs. It started with Ecstasy, then liquor, Vicodin, Valium, shrooms, marijuana,
Tylenol 3,Whip-Its, and a host of other over-the-counter drugs. He was scared to go to
sleep that night. Then there were times when he would be selective and claim he was
cutting back. “Today I’m only doing Ecstasy!” Slim would say. That would last for
twelve hours."

btw I had just wanted to share this book for everyone who wants to read this shit as someone asked for it like a month ago in a thread here.

[Trimss]

Hmmm...

I'm not sure this would qualify as an addiction, exactly. This seems to fit more inside the realm of habituation. What these means is that he had developed a habit, even a need to a certain extent, but this seems different than addiction to me. The ecstasy was necessary at its worst for performances. The thing about a full on addiction is that it comes to be necessary for practically every aspect of life. That's what makes it so hard to control.

Plus, psychedelic drugs aren't typically addictive. In fact, some are very useful in fighting addiction. I can see there being an increased risk of addiction with a psychedelic amphetamine like MDMA, but pure Molly isn't really prone to getting you legitimately hooked. Chances are though, the rolls he was getting were adulterated with methamphetamine, or something similar.

That's why you always go for the Molly kids, and be sure to test your rolls with a kit.

Gotta love your posts.

[EminemBase]

Doing half a pill or a pill isn't an addiction.

I went to Ibiza for a week and was munching upto 10 pills a night, one point I think I had 14 and I basically nearly died, my heart slowed down, I barely slept, just kept taking them.

Then I went insane the following week, it appeared to wipe out my memory and sense of self, apparently due to the draining of spinal fluid maybe? I lost my marbles temporarily... that kind of consumption, where you can't stop, is addiction. Not half a hit now n then.

You're addicted when you need more n more and more and can't stop, and all risk is obliterated / unimportant in your mind, as it's just a chemical fix you're craving and, nothing else matters. If he could survive on half a pill or a pill and then not need constant re-ups, he wasn't addicted.

[Spirit92]

Doing half a pill or a pill isn't an addiction.

I went to Ibiza for a week and was munching upto 10 pills a night, one point I think I had 14 and I basically nearly died, my heart slowed down, I barely slept, just kept taking them.

Then I went insane the following week, it appeared to wipe out my memory and sense of self, apparently due to the draining of spinal fluid maybe? I lost my marbles temporarily... that kind of consumption, where you can't stop, is addiction. Not half a hit now n then.

You're addicted when you need more n more and more and can't stop, and all risk is obliterated / unimportant in your mind, as it's just a chemical fix you're craving and, nothing else matters. If he could survive on half a pill or a pill and then not need constant re-ups, he wasn't addicted.

Agreed.

But wait, you took 14 hits of E in one night? My record is 4 in one night and even after that I felt absolutely awful.

[EminemBase]

Doing half a pill or a pill isn't an addiction.

I went to Ibiza for a week and was munching upto 10 pills a night, one point I think I had 14 and I basically nearly died, my heart slowed down, I barely slept, just kept taking them.

Then I went insane the following week, it appeared to wipe out my memory and sense of self, apparently due to the draining of spinal fluid maybe? I lost my marbles temporarily... that kind of consumption, where you can't stop, is addiction. Not half a hit now n then.

You're addicted when you need more n more and more and can't stop, and all risk is obliterated / unimportant in your mind, as it's just a chemical fix you're craving and, nothing else matters. If he could survive on half a pill or a pill and then not need constant re-ups, he wasn't addicted.

Agreed.

But wait, you took 14 hits of E in one night? My record is 4 in one night and even after that I felt absolutely awful.

Yeah I did, my heart slowed down too and then for like days I had like... head spazms lmao. I was also going to kill myself at one point, and recorded a suicide video lmao...

But then forgot and fell asleep.

Then I had a sort of, deep memory loss the week after like, of not knowing exactly who my mother was and just, acting quite strange.

[chiasmus]

Doing half a pill or a pill isn't an addiction.

I went to Ibiza for a week and was munching upto 10 pills a night, one point I think I had 14 and I basically nearly died, my heart slowed down, I barely slept, just kept taking them.

Then I went insane the following week, it appeared to wipe out my memory and sense of self, apparently due to the draining of spinal fluid maybe? I lost my marbles temporarily... that kind of consumption, where you can't stop, is addiction. Not half a hit now n then.

You're addicted when you need more n more and more and can't stop, and all risk is obliterated / unimportant in your mind, as it's just a chemical fix you're craving and, nothing else matters. If he could survive on half a pill or a pill and then not need constant re-ups, he wasn't addicted.

Agreed.

But wait, you took 14 hits of E in one night? My record is 4 in one night and even after that I felt absolutely awful.

Yeah I did, my heart slowed down too and then for like days I had like... head spazms lmao. I was also going to kill myself at one point, and recorded a suicide video lmao...

But then forgot and fell asleep.

Then I had a sort of, deep memory loss the week after like, of not knowing exactly who my mother was and just, acting quite strange.

Fucking hell tell us some more! This sounds hilarious/tragic.

[AbramIsaac]

Damn, Embase.

I thought I was getting kinda out there when I was eating all of those OxyContin and Fentanyl patches, but I'm pretty sure you have me beat by a long shot.

Jesus, that's some crazy shit.