Depersonalization/derealization...please help me. Please.

[RainMan44]

Okay, long story short...about 6 days ago I had a meal at In & Out and then my chest started tightening up. My friend made a joke that I'm having a heart attack. When I searched the symptoms, I freaked the fuck out, and for a couple days thought I was going to have a heart attack. I didn't want to sleep at nights because I feared I wouldn't wake up.

Now, for about 5 days, I have been feeling like I'm dreaming. This is what DP/DR does. Like I'm in a movie. Everything looks/feels cartoonish. Shit I used to care about just don't seem as significant anymore. My HEAD FEELS SO FUCKING foggy. BEST WAY TO DESCRIBE IT, it's like I'm here physically but not mentally. Like I'm on autopilot and I'm just floating on by with life.

I know it's all in my head because dp/dr is a symptom of anxiety. But it's so fucking annoying. It's like I'm aware of stuff but don't really give a fuck about it. It's like nothing changes my mood. I'm permanently in a spaced out place. When I'm with my friends, it's like I got no excitement. I'll partake in w/e they're doing but it feels like...I'm just there. I'm just a single person and THEY are a group. I don't feel like I'm geling.

IT HAS GOTTEN BETTER though. I feel more in reality now. But that head fog won't go away. My mind is just...blank. You know when you're high/buzzed and you're watching something on TV and it just looks very animated/cartoony/vivid? That's how it is when I'm watching TV.




It's scaring the shit out of me.

Will this ever go away?

P.S, can weed be the cause of this? I've been smoking for about 4-6 days a week for the past 3 months. I'm fine when I smoke, I love it. But can this just be a result of too much weed?

Please, how do I get my old life back. I want to be myself again. It's not so terrible that I'd do something totally wacko, but it's just an uncomfortable feeling. MY BODY IS HERE, BUT MY MIND ISN'T. IT'S LIKE MY EYES ARE WHERE MY HEAD ENDS. THE REST ISN'T THERE. Lol.

:/

[DƎRDYPK]

if you're feeling like shit you probably need to take one.
go poo, touch yourself, & or build a time machine. I hope you get better mate

[RainMan44]

if you're feeling like shit you probably need to take one.
go poo, touch yourself, & or build a time machine. I hope you get better mate

Thanks bro

[DƎRDYPK]

I'm aware of stuff but don't really give a fuck about it. It's like nothing changes my mood. I'm permanently in a spaced out place. When I'm with my friends, it's like I got no excitement. I'll partake in w/e they're doing but it feels like...I'm just there. I'm just a single person and THEY are a group. I don't feel like I'm geling.

I really feel you

[RainMan44]

I'm aware of stuff but don't really give a fuck about it. It's like nothing changes my mood. I'm permanently in a spaced out place. When I'm with my friends, it's like I got no excitement. I'll partake in w/e they're doing but it feels like...I'm just there. I'm just a single person and THEY are a group. I don't feel like I'm geling.

I really feel you

sucks eh? lol

[space_bone]

welcome to my world/

[Kill You]

Weed doesn't do that to you. It enhances your experience but that's it. It's really just stress. It's like what Insane said, to SLEEP.

[flyingmonkey10]

go see a doctor? seriously

[Asche]

I dunno man, I had a friend who claims to have experienced this for two weeks after smoking a lot. He says it was like he got "stuck" in this mode. Eventually it went away. Has it gotten better for you?

I have experienced some degree of derealization before due to anxiety. If it gets really bad, try to ground yourself by being as present in the moment as possible. Feel your feet on the floor, get up and touch things you see around the room if you want, just to confirm that you're not looking at the world through a window. For the more subtle stuff, like feeling separated from your friends, I think that's something that can only really go away with time. Try to relax, laugh, and enjoy yourself, and don't obsess over how foggy you feel.

Oh, and one more thing. Don't look up your fucking symptoms on the internet. This is a first-class ticket to anxiety attacks.

Edit: You probably already know this, but depersonalization/derealization is how your brain protects you from overwhelming fear/negative emotions so you don't have to experience them. If it's still bothering you, you may wanna find out why you are so unhappy. Hope you get to feeling better.

[RainMan44]

Woah. i appreciate you guys, good advice. I got through it, it's gone now, but god it was the single shittiest week of my life

[Eedee]

Drink a nice, cold glass of milk, two graham crackers, followed up by a tall glass of ice water.

I'm dead serious. That shit fucking helps.

[Pllumi]

im sorry for you man, the problem is theres a tons of things that could contribute to your fogginess and all the bad things associated with it.... substance withdrawal, anxiety and the list goes on and on :/

[psu24]

There can definitely be marijuana-induced dp. I went through the condition for 2 years and talked to plenty of doctors and that's one of the main causes, that along with a couple other herbs and drugs can do it as well. For anyone who hasn't had it it's worse than anything you could imagine, wose than just about any physical illness. Only advice I could give is like the guy above said get some sleep but the key is getting your mind off of it, the more you have it in the back of your mind the worse it'll get. Mine was more anxiety related but I'm pretty sure it's easier to treat drug-induced.

[BigBoss]

I just wanted to say In n Out is really good

[SamiFFXII]

go see a doctor? seriously

Please tell me you've done this OP.