

No, it's actually literally. Today is a pretty important day for me. Many of you don't know this, actually none of you don't know this because I've never shared it, but for almost 2 years I've been smoking that spice shit VERY HEAVILY. It's like crack. Literally. You smoke it more and more and it gets less and less amazing as you keep smoking. You eventually don't even get high from it, but a light buzz just to get your fix for the day. It's terrible. Now, I know what you're thinking...."how do you get addicted to that shit? Isn't it supposed to get you really really high?"
It's pretty easy to get addicted. Yeah, you get really really high but as I said before, your tolerance eventually raises up higher than a skyscraper and eventually you're smoking it not to get high, but to FEEL BETTER. To be HAPPY. And whenever you're not on the shit you're depressed. It's frightening and sickening. Shameful, even. No wonder why I didn't wanna share with you all, especially since I respect you all and your opinions of me.
So, finally, why is today so important? Well, as you probably already guessed...I'm quitting the shit. Or at least, slowing down GREATLY. Because it's something you can't keep doing. It drains your money. At first it's cheaper than weed but eventually you find yourself spending 100 bucks every other day to get high. Not healthy. I don't believe I can go STRAIGHT UP cold turkey right now because you do get withdrawls when you're not smoking it. But it is time to grow up and move on from the shit. It's really dumb, just smoking the shit and NOT EVEN GETTING HIGH. There's absolutely nothing wrong with getting high, it's for recreation and relaxation. But there is something wrong when you feel like you NEED to get high.
For anyone who cares. Idk, it's just something I'm proud of. When you make the conscience decision to better yourself and stop something that's harming you. I'm of course gonna keep smoking weed, there's nothing wrong with weed. There's something wrong with spice though. If it ain't green, it ain't clean. Remember that everyone.
