Feeling like shit about some things, so I took 20-30 minutes out and just let my feelings out about a few topics. Really rough. The flow is kinda complicated cuz the beat was a bastard, but yeah. Hope you enjoy.
I was baptized in the carnage of battlefields
A prodigy with the way I harnessed and mastered skills
Quit poppin shit when you know you hardly could grasp a deal
Yeah you’re a soldier, but I’m the sergeant you bastard chill
You put me to sleep like I was sippin on chamomile
But I approach with something you bitches would have to feel
So I grabbed the glass and hoped that I could drown my sorrows
Pray to God today no demons come around tomorrow
Twisted devils on different levels of consciousness
Fiends is screamin see I’m believin in all this shit
I can’t fuckin sleep, the view is stuck in deep
My man is buckin heat, until he’s fuckin weak
Until his blood is drippin and he’s seein double vision
Eddie you fuckin bitch your daughter wasn’t double digits
But that’s how it is when you live on the street corners
I know you tried and thought you were digging deep for us
But in the next life, after the after-life
Be a fuckin father, and not the fuckin actor type
Cuz if we reconnect and you’re still on the failure shelf
I’ll cock the glock and kill you my fuckin self
If there’s another life, a life that’s after life
I hope it’s me, my fam, and my homies passin mics
God I’m askin nice, I can’t stand to fight
Just lemme chill, drink, and gimme a chance to write
Cocaine, barcardy rum, and some cali weed
A good bar and some laughs and that’s all you need
But when it’s all you feel you start to swallow pills
It’s been years and I look like I’m fuckin hallow still
But that’s what you preached “live young and die fast”
It’s crazy how the memories could just fly past
But it’s the curse of the legends, we never get it fair
Or you never give it fair, but I ain’t splittin hairs
You made your choices fine, I got your voice in mind
Assuring me that I’m gonna have to rejoice in time
But just know when I’m screamin that it’s you I’m seein
Another demon my head is steamin I hope I’m dreamin
I hope your grave turns every time you hear me pleadin
I can’t beg enough bitch my fuckin knees are bleedin
Fuck you honestly, cuz you’re standin on top of me
I know you’re dead and gone, but apologize properly
I hear the silence auntie; it’s speaking loud and clear
So while I’m bleedin out realize you could have found me here
If there’s another life, a life that’s after life
I hope it’s me, my fam, and my homies passin mics
God I’m askin nice, I can’t stand to fight
Just lemme chill, drink, and gimme a chance to write
If there’s another life, a life that’s after life
I hope it’s me, my fam, and my homies passin mics
God I’m askin nice, I can’t stand to fight
Just lemme chill, drink, and gimme a chance to write