I used to always speak at schools about abusive relationships since i was in one for 5 years. I was always into writing. I won two poetry contest on poetry.com and other contest as well for my writing. I am going to be in a book about sexual abuse. Victims tell there stories and I told one of mine and got put into the book. Everyone has there own opinion on love and I wrote for a magazine my opinion on love. So I wanted to share it with everyone and get everyones opinion on it.
My opinion on love
I been through some messed up relationships in the past.The one's that make you believe there is no one out there that can make you as happy as your first love.Because even though he beat you up and pretty much put you through hell.He still taught you what it was like to love and that's really the only kinda love your used too.You been through so much with that person that it's hard to let go.thats true love.but still somewhere in your heart you believe what your friends tell you,that he isn't good enough for you.We all have our opinions on love and I want to share mine with everyone.
Im looking for someone who can make me so happy that I know he's my only one.Just by him walking into the room I get butterflys in my stomach and I don't want him to leave.Someone who will be there for me and look past my problems and love me dispite them & know that ima always do the same for them.Someone I can share my secretes with and not have to worry about being backstabbed and/or heartbroken and someone who trusts me and knows me inside and out as the good hearted person I can be.
Unfortiantly iv learned the hard way and when that one guy comes along to help me realize love is real.That's when I know it was all worth it in the end.We all need to be pushed around.Sometimes all we need is too be backstabbed or heart broken.Beat up and confused.We all learn from our mistakes and that one person who picks up all the pieces is worth it to us.That's how we grow up to learn. That's how we find our true love.Every tear,blood,and heart break.Every time we pick up a knife and cut ourselves or every time we swallow pills thinking dying is the only way to get rid of our pain.When we find the one that makes us happy all the pain from your past relationship will never be forgotten but the person who did it to you will never be remembered and all the happyness you will go through in the future will be worth all the pain you endured in the end. It's life and it is what it is.No one is going to change your past but only you can change your future. I believe there's a soul mate out there for everyone and if you search hard enough they will eventually make there way to you it may take time but all the time in the world is worth being happy in the end.
I truley believe that all the pain we go through in relationships will eventually turn into happyness.God works in mysterious ways but in the end all the bad stuff that has happened to you if you do your part will eventually all come together and give you the happyness you disserve.