Foray Into My Thoughts

[Solace]

Yeah..

[Verse 1]
My attitude, and personality all reflects on all the drugs I sell,
No I can't expect anyone to love me when I don't love myself,
What's happening, I'm imagining that she's looking right at me,
Hopefully approaching me, oh I see she's looking right past me,
Breaking down, shaking now, pathetic is the way it sounds,
And the funny thing is everybody thinks I'm faking, wow,
You see this is the realest that I've ever been with myself,
And I'm already fucked up, no point, shit so why help,
Alone in my room, never enough time with solitude,
Be honest too, calamity isn't really what I sought from you,
Emotionally abusive, talking to myself, fuck man why you stupid?
Mind influenced to write ruthless in my music, and the truth is,
I look in the mirror, take off the fake smile 'cause it isn't me,
Act indifferent even though shit you say really does get to me,
Held up in my misery, fed up, messed up, and seriously,
You taking this jokingly just implies you ain't hearing me.

[Chorus]
How did it feel? Huh, Omar?
When everyone was hugging each other,
And you was laying at your locker succumbing to slumber.
When you were alone and sad, writing lyrics,
And everyone was outside smiling and cheering.
When kids showed up to school with their father,
And you was alone, 'cause your father wouldn't bother.
When your heart was simply broken to bits,
And she was smiling at other guys, every moment it ripped.
How did it feel? How did it feel?

[Verse 2]
I barely ever speak, I'll utter words only after I stutter first,
Fuck, must I curse? Only recently I discovered love is worse,
It's the love I love, love is pain, so you see I love the pain,
I cut my veins, now I got myself wondering what's insane,
And other days, physical pain isn't enough so I find other ways,
Pain is money, funny I'm just wondering how much I'll pay,
Each person passing me by, hope they know I seek revenge,
Better ready their shield, I'll do more than just "ether" them,
I hope you can understand or relate, I ain't joking, please,
Don't get it twisted, misconceptions, acting like "oh woe is me!",
What this Uzi shows is that lately I've been losing hope,
Cruising woes moving slow, trying hard but am I improving? No.
So much shit has taken place, you can go and say her name,
I'm still broken to pieces by it, as if nobody could take her place,
Forgotten entity, remember me? Exactly, might as well sever me.
Memories are sending me to a place where there is never peace.

[Chorus]
How did it feel? Huh, Omar?
When everyone was hugging each other,
And you was laying at your locker succumbing to slumber.
When you were alone and sad, writing lyrics,
And everyone was outside smiling and cheering.
When kids showed up to school with their father,
And you was alone, 'cause your father wouldn't bother.
When your heart was simply broken to bits,
And she was smiling at other guys, every moment it ripped.
How did it feel? How did it feel?

[Solace]

Daym MC Anonymous told me it wasn't good but I didn't know it was bad enough to not even feed

[DƎRDYPK]

It wasn't as bad as you think it is.....in fact..I liked it
another piece from you that's different from your others

[GibbzyTrShady]

I Liked this man,, Deffo a recording track

[Arabian Shady]

that definately is a foray into your thought,lol
Deep man , its like soo freakin personal, i actually thought...its omar THAT fuked up
i digg the chorus, its on some real shit

[Relapse.LP]

Great flow and the multies were all in there. Structure was consistent, as well. All the basics are basically mastered. Solid verse, no doubt.

[Solace]

Major props to you all!